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Loving the Unlovable

I was a very young preschooler when my mom left the east cost and my biological dad. It was just the three of us. My mom, older sister and I went to make a new start in the west. My mom having so much courage to start new, to make a great home for us with little to no money.

This did not stop her, she worked tirelessly giving not only a roof over our heads but giving us attention becoming mom/dad to my sister and I . My hats always been off to my brave mom but I didn’t always act this way. Being so young I had no idea what was really going on. Because I did not understand or know much at the time for a while I acted out. That’s putting it nicely, I did everything that would make the average person want to pull their hair out.

To my moms credit she kept her hair. She did what is so hard to do, She showed me love and kindness in spite of my actions. She would hold me tighter even during my fight.

I am sure time dragged on for my mom but her loving actions paid off BIG time. I finally gave up the fight I allowed my mom to love me. I accepted what was going on, I was still hurting but I knew I had a soft place to fall.

I not only had my mom and sister but down the road I had a man who chose us, he married my mom and gave my sister and I his last name. Talk about love.

I reflect on this today because I have people in my life that seem to be so unlovable but I know I need to show love just like I was shown.

I not only was shown such awesome love by my mom and dad but my heavenly father as well and because that I get to live loved and when I live loved my actions are not based on those of other people. I just love the SO unlovable.

 

Zephaniah 3:17 The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.

 

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Gratitude Garden

I love Thanksgiving! It has always been my favorite holiday, with all the good things that come from the kitchen. The recipes that are only done once a year it brings excitement and joy to me. While I am in the kitchen cooking or in the dinning room setting the table with all the colors of autumn I can hear laughing and yes even the arguing. I wouldn’t change any of it.

This is so pleasing to me and gives me an appreciation of my life and reminds me of what gifts I have been blessed with.

Even in my darkest of times when my children were growing up, their dad was with us drinking or using, I still could see the little bit of joy this holiday would bring. It might not last long because with an addict you never know how much time you have of peace but I would embrace it while I could and make the most of it so my children would have happy memories and I would have some of my own.

My life has changed so much from those days and my grown children have complemented me on having good holidays but I must give credit to God for he was with us even in the darkest of the days and we can enjoy today for what it is.

With Thanksgiving and the holidays coming up I reflect with gratitude on my life. I think of how I like to garden and how it compares with life.

As you plant you prepare the soil, plant your seeds then water but in doing so you also know that weeds will be coming as well as what you planted. It takes work to keep the weeds from over taking, in fact it is easier to grow weeds than the plants you want.

Isn’t life just like that, it takes such hard continuous work to keep healthy.

Unhealthy thoughts of ungratefulness, anger, unforgivness, worry….the list can go on with thoughts that can over take us and still our joy. If we don’t keep up on our weeding we lose our joy making it so easy to only see the problems in our life.

In my past with those dark days I couldn’t let the weeds over take me and I’m sure not going to now. I have to do my daily weeding in the morning when my mind is fresh and before my day gets going. As I have my prayer, medication and devotions I have to mentally pull out my weeds, even the ones that are just coming up or they could so easily take over. I choose daily to have a garden of gratitude not one of whiny weeds.

Do you have some weeding to do in your garden before the big day of thankfulness comes?

Philippians 4:7 “And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

 

 

 

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Change of Direction

I am one of the millions that look forward to Tuesday nights just to tune into “This is Us”. Over the summer I looked forward to the start of season two with such anticipation and so far it has been just as good as the first season. I laugh, I cry and discuss the show with my fellow viewers. My son tells me its my soap opera but I don’t care its just that good.

As I watched last night one of the main characters Kevin who by all accounts has it all, looks, money, career a loving family. It shows him spiraling down. It shows him reliving the major event in his life that changed every dream he had of being a star football player, he gets injured and has to face saying good-by to what he wanted. I found the part in the show when his loving dad tells him yes he has naturel talent for football and he was awesome at it but that he has other things he is great at too, how true.

Yes its just a show but I thought how many times life changes in a blink of an eye. That job, marriage, house, relationship or good health becomes no longer.

We are left feeling like the rug was pulled out from under us. The questions of what will I do or become now? How will I go on?

I know from experience that it’s in those times when I feel the worse if I turn to God he is there. If I allow him to lead and comfort me things will be as they are but my attitude will be better and in time even get good again.

That wonderful cycle of life, the ability to move forward and grow is what makes us better people. If I never had pain I would never be able to know the feeling of such delight and joy or have as much compassion as I do.

To embrace our changes in our directions and enjoy the detour, we might realize we are better off.

Psalm 30:5b

“..weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.”

 

 

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Good Advice

Colossians 4:5-6

“Walk in wisdom toward them that are without, redeeming the time. Let your speech be always with grace, seasoned with salt, that ye may know how ye ought to answer every man.”

 

What great advice! If you wonder like me on how to live or treat others this is one passage that tells us. I find this so needed now more than ever. For me to live in such a way that my experience, knowledge and good judgment is shared in a loving manner to those around me who may not have the same faith or value system but that are in need of what I can offer without judgment. Notice it does not say walk in judgment and as if you know it all toward them that are with out, big difference! The passage says to share the quality of being wise not share you options.

Next it says how to speak. If we speak with unmerited favor (grace) what major problems can be eliminated if only that pinch of salt is added.

Salt when added to a dish adds flavor, makes you thirst for more. It also has a chemical way it helps, when added to baking it helps slow down the other ingredients so they can do what they should so the dish turns out.

So when we talk with “salt” if will add a positive good feeling leaving others wanting more not less and in time things turn out.

Pretty simple  yet good advise but can be so hard to do but it can be done if we just keep trying.

 

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When Motivation Takes a Vacation

I woke up today realizing that my usual motivated self could have just stayed in full jammies mode, doing nothing all day sounded like music to my tired ears. I thought how is it that my motivation just up and went on vacation. It packed up and just went without any warning, I mean really how rude.

I went to bed felling happy and ready to take on the world. My many plans that were in my head seemed so doable.  I smiled at some and thought of others as I cant wait to cross those ones off. I left them as plans falling asleep not realizing that upon waking I would be lacking my motivation.

Another time in my life I would have thought what is wrong with me? I am learning that some days my normal take on the word self is not there anymore. I am ok with just doing what I can, accepting what can’t be done and if I get the blessing of another day I can and will do better then.

My body that would be able to train for and run a marathon at times reminds me its ok to rest. I am not lesser than because I might need to reschedule somethings for another time. I now have compassion for others that I might have looked down upon for not being motivated. I somehow thought that REST was a four letter dirty word.

Rest is not a weakness. It is much-needed to enhance your life and brings peace. I take a lesson from the nature. I love the autumn, it is natures last celebration before the rest of winter.  In winter almost all is resting and getting ready for the new growth of spring and the full action of summer.

Today my motivation may be on vacation but it didn’t pack all its bags, I know it will be back. I will rest and be ready for its return.

Isaiah 26:3

“Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.”

 

 

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She Gave Her All

I decided last December to read the whole Bible in a year! Yes cover to cover in one year. This might not sound like a big deal but for me it was. I love to read but when it came to the Bible I must admit a big chunk of it can be a bit boring, so with a great app I got to work.

Thanks to this awesome app its been easy to stay on track and I have 54 more days until I accomplish a huge goal even the “boring” parts are being read.

So over the course of this year when I read very familiar parts I also get different insights, like today in Luke 21: 1-4. Luke describes Jesus as watching rich men giving their gifts to the treasury and as he watches this he looks and sees a women who was a poor widow give all she had.

This did not go unnoticed by Jesus and he not only noticed but used it as a great teaching time.

As I thought about the women that had no man or money it did not stop her from not just giving but doing so with everything she had. She was looked down upon for not having a man or money just like we might tend to do today.

Do we myself included here, give our all?

As I think over my last week and boy what a week I had, my answerer is nope I fell short at times. I don’t just mean financially but giving of our time, energy, thoughtfulness….the list can go on. In fact at times I was stingy with my thoughtfulness and good attitude.

I have heard time put this way and it really can put our thoughts into perspective.

Say we all get $86,400.00  deposited every day into our bank account daily, how would we spend it? Would we give our all or be like the wealthy and keep a large portion? The 86,400 is the amount of seconds we are given daily.  Just think if we aren’t as stingy with our time and good attitude and start giving our all we just might not only have more energy and happiness but on days when that other person might night be able to give their all we could share and they would be better off and might give back when they can.

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Getting Socks On

Last Thursday was the last day for me to take my grandson to school due to change in my schedule. It’s a bitter-sweet time for me.

As I got to his house to pick him up I could hear his mom telling him to hurry and get his socks on because I would be there any minute. I knocked on the door and walked in finding my grandson looking shocked with huge eyes that said he knew he should and listened to his mom.

My heart melted the moment I looked at him, I have had those same feelings my self.

Those feelings of if only, of embarrassment, letting someone you love down and the one that can really keep you down, regret.

As adults we all still choose to not get our socks on then beat ourselves up and live defeated lives holding our heads down.

I walked over to my downtrodden grandson sat down beside him and just talked plus with a hug and kiss, all was right in his world he knew grandma still loved him, he would still make it to school on time and he worked out his problem that caused him to not want to listen.

Just like when I walked over to my grandson to extend grace so does God. He is always there to extend grace even when we choose to do something we shouldn’t. His love is always there with His arms open wide to make our world right again. We don’t have live with our heads down, we can live loved.
Ephesians 2:4-5 – But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ— by grace you have been saved …
Romans 5:8 – but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Zephaniah 3:17 – The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.
1 Peter 5:6-7 – Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.
Psalm 86:15 – But you, O Lord, are a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness.

 

 

 

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Its in the Little Things

I have always been a firm believer in greeting each day with conscious breathing and putting my hand over my heart to feel it beat. As I do this I do some mindful waking and prayer. I know that to have my heart beating means I have purpose but it’s up to me to embrace this and do it. I will pray for guidance but it’s up to me to do it.

This being said I also now have a puppy who is a morning soul and greets each new day with such joy it puts me to shame. I not only have a mindful wakening but get to laugh as I greet each day, her joy is infectious and it got me thinking.

I have thought that with the tragedy in Vegas the people who went to the concert did so looking their best and thought they were just going to have a wonderful time. I am sure that with each makeup application and each careful thought out piece of clothing no one would have thought what was to happen.

My prayers go out to all that have been impacted by this and all other tragedies.

It seems that as I watch the news it turns into my prayer list and I must leave it at that or I will start to get to sad for those in the news. I also can turn it of and start thinking about all the little things in my life I take for granted.

What if we all start to see each small thing in our life from the time we wake up until we fall asleep we acknowledge all of it. I bet that when we start thinking of every small thing in our life as celebrations in stead of obligations and yes even on Monday morning as we go to work instead of complaining you have to go to work look at it as I am thankful I have a job.

Lets celebrate the small things, burn those candles, use the best china just because and celebrate life.

I believe if we start just how my puppy’s joy for each new day is infectious so will our grateful attitudes be and we might just start having a happier life.

Psalm 39:4

“LORD, remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Remind me that my days are numbered–how fleeting my life is.

 

 

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Yoga and a Puppy

I have been practicing yoga for a lot of years. It helped me when my children were young and as I went through a divorce but I had no idea how stuck in a rut I have been in until I got a puppy a few weeks ago.

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This is my new addition Padme Rose, she is only 9 weeks (10 in a few days) and so full of life. I was reminded how dull my life was, with adult children and my girl Dingo who is nine years old my home was almost a tomb when I did yoga. The morning after I brought her home I got my mat and started as usual but as I centered my self I could feel nipping at my toes that progressed to jumping up and grabbing my ponytail. I continued to just breath with her growling and tugging on my shirt. I was brought out of my breathing and centering with a bite to my toe that reminded me her teeth are tiny needles.

I gave her some toys but that only lasted a moment then my older dog decided to join in the fun. They started playing so I started to do some poses. As I went from downward dog to plank a perfectly timed jump brought my puppy landing on my back. I couldn’t help but plop onto my stomach with a laugh that continued for a while.

Yes this is my new normal. My quite yoga days are gone but I have found I am growing in my practice and with that I am growing off the mat as well.

I cant help but see how my wild yoga practice is parallel to life.

We can go through life at a quite pace nothing really happening until one day a problem or crises will arise. We can either go with it, feel the pain or problem then move through it or get upset that are normal quite life is anything but what it use to be and stay in that hurt.

One thing is consent and that is change nothing will ever stay the same . We wont always have an easy smooth quite life but then again our problems wont last, we will move on even as painful as it seems from death or trauma. The sun will still rise and set then one day we will start to notice this rising and maybe the colors and a little of the beauty that still can be found if only noticed for a moment.

Just as I know my puppy will grow and I will have my quite yoga back. I know that right now my life is a bit crazy but in time that to will calm down. I have so many favorite passages that always encourage me but here are two that might help you.

Jeremiah 29:11
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”

Romans 8:18
For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.

 

 

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“You is Kind, You is Smart, You is Important”

Last Friday I was in the mood for a heart-felt movie. Not really a romantic one but the kind that leaves you thinking or needing a box of Kleenex. As I looked at what was getting ready to come on I couldn’t believe my good fortune. I did a double take at the guide on my screen and pressed enter so I could watch “The Help”.

I only had a few minutes to get my pajamas on and a good snack. I flew around the house to get everything done so I could have a great Friday night at home nice and comfy. I had read the book and loved it but was hoping I wouldn’t be let down by the movie.

I was anything but let down, as I watched Aibileen ( the maid ) try to help the poor little toddler Mae Mobley  who is a hot mess and pushed aside by her mom. So in need of a kind gentle reminder that she mattered. Aibileen spoke such simple and to the point words of encouragement that she hoped would take root in her little heart. She said ” You is kind, You is Smart, You is important”.

I got a tear in my eye for all the Mae Mobley’s that are alive and need this reminder, myself included.

Sometimes I forget to see myself as kind, smart and important. I forget something so simple when I just get frustrated with myself. I really needed it put so simply to speak to my inner child that can be in need of a kind gentle reminder.

I wrote down that simple phrase on a card but didn’t stop there I went to my bathroom, grabbed my red lipstick I never wear but new it would come in handy and wrote it on my mirror as a reminder, Just in case I forget.